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Paige
Mood: commanding the field ✦
39 years old
Earth (mostly)
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"Whatever you refuse to say out loud, life WILL force out of you."
Rihanna feat. Jeezy (cover)
- 01Hard · Rock Remix Cover
- 02Gypsy · Fleetwood Mac
- 03War Pigs · Black Sabbath
- 04Ultraviolence · Lana Del Rey
- 05Lujon · Henry Mancini
| Status: | Married |
| Here for: | Women who already won and want to feel it |
| Kids: | Proud mom |
| Design: | Quad left · Innocence · Wanting |
| Zodiac: | Virgo Sun, Libra Moon, Libra Rising |
| Smoke / Drink: | No / Occasionally |
| Education: | Hypnosis, Human Design, and my own Rapid Pattern Resolution |
| Occupation: | SELF(ish), author of The Patterns, certifier of Energetic Strategists |
| General | Playing pretend, the occult, building massive businesses, behavioral profiling, metaphysical psychology, musical theatre, theology, anthropology, thrifting, reading, feminism, being a Virgo, being right, journaling, performing on stage, blowing minds, giving advice, raising little humans into big humans, intimacy, Rosé + my husband. |
| Music | It depends on my mood. I have a Zeppelin tattoo, know 90% of Lil Wayne's lyrics and used to cry in cars about boys to Counting Crows. |
| Movies | Now and Then, The Craft, Practical Magic, Almost Famous, Thirteen, Pearl Harbor, Donnie Darko, Gone Girl, Nosferatu, American Psycho, Oppenheimer, Bully, Kids, Brick, Interview with the Vampire, 10 Things I Hate About You, Jennifer's Body |
| Television | Yellowjackets, American Horror Story (Coven, Murder House, Cult), One Tree Hill, Dawson's Creek, Stranger Things, Margo's Got Money Troubles, My So-Called Life, true crime |
| Books | The Patterns (I wrote it, I reread it every time I'm stuck), In Cold Blood, The Feminine Universe, Guardian Angel, The Egyptian Book of the Dead, As You Believe, Soul Re-Creation, Gene Keys, The Definitive Book of Human Design, Matrix Energetics, Outwitting the Devil. I read about 50 books a year, so this list is still being curated. |
| Heroes | Morticia Addams and Miranda Priestly |
I was a personal brand before there was a word for it. I ran funnels and Facebook ads for companies, and maybe a quarter of what I posted had anything to do with what I sold. I said what was on my mind. Once or twice a week I mentioned an offer, and it sold every time.
Then I did what the industry told me to. Offer first, content second. It was brutal. That was one of my signal distortions: a "should" I absorbed that ran against how I'm wired.
When I went back to saying what I couldn't hold in, it got loud. Dating as a training ground for supreme confidence brought 40,000 followers and an Elite Daily feature I never pitched. The energetics of beauty turned into year-long subscriptions.
Today I work in one place: the unseen forces. Human Design is how I see them. Rapid Pattern Resolution is how we end them. I don't coach the version of you that you present. I work with the one running the show.
❤︎ Women who closed the deal and still can't tell their husband what they need.
❤︎ Founders who built the thing and realized it isn't who they are.
❤︎ Mothers who refuse to be martyrs and want their kids to learn that love can ask.
❤︎ Anyone who did the therapy, did the coaching, and watched the pattern come back in a new outfit.
❤︎ Black cats. Supreme confidence, a little unbothered.
❤︎ Podcast hosts brave enough to let me read their chart on air.
My long-form writing lives on Substack: the patterns, the unseen forces, and the parts of my life I don't post anywhere else.
| My brain is wired | Quad left. Hyper-specific, allergic to vague. |
| What actually drives me | Innocence. I want to see it fresh, every time. |
| The lens I see through | Wanting. I notice what you want before you say it. |
| My uniform | Black and white. Gold on top. |
| Year 39 theme | Commanding the field instead of managing the machine. |
| Best advice I ever got | "Take responsibility for yourself." My dad. |
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